December 2010
47 posts
I'M COMPLETELY LOST.
I don’t know what to do anymore. Nothing matters to me now. It seems like death keeps calling my name…
Oh god, why me?
I think this is the end of my relationship.
Trying to steal my christmas money is the last fucking straw. I do everything for you and this is what I get? You make me sick to my stomach. I don’t even know why I love you so much when you obviously don’t respect me.
I’m going to cry, I’m going to hurt, but at least I’ll (eventually) be happy again. I just can’t take this abuse anymore.
I loved you.
Now...
Only once the drugs are done, that I feel like...
I’ve always said the second and third day without oxycodone is the worst. Addicts agree mostly.
Today has been hell and my family still thinks I’m sober. I went 12 days sober. 12. I lied to my mother today saying I haven’t done them since I got out of detox. I couldn’t do it. Why?
It makes my life so much more enjoyable when I have it, but when I don’t.. it’s...
Sticks and stones may break my bones but your...
I don’t know what to do anymore. My boyfriend is the meanest person I know. He says the most hateful things to me and even after he apoligizes, it still hurts. Yet, I can’t let him go, I love him too much. I wish he didn’t say such nasty things to me. My self esteem is already very low and he just brings it down to non-existent.
Non-existent.
I’m suffering. I’m...
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1,307 miles.
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I'm
slipping down a precarious slope.
half way there.
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I think it’s time for me to get a new bowl. Mine’s broken, still useable, but still. I love buying new, shiny, clean pieces :)
Tomorrow?
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Recovering
8 days sober.
Going to Mclean Hospital
I’m fucking terrified.
No more updates til i get out. Wish me luck I guess?
overcoming an addiction is hard...
even harder when the person you love the most isnt a great support.
I’m going back to bed.
getting clean & sober.
they say this is going to be the first day of the rest of my life.
I’m fucking terrified.
